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Thursday, February 28, 2008 ; 9:57 PMY

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Not dead, just sleeping.

Like, really, sleeping.

I <3 the lovely sleep-syrup, my sleep hours has increased tremendously. And boy, do I LOVE sleeping, capital L capital E.

Today has been a happy day *hums to the tune of MBMH*, despite the usual shitty packed-ass thursday routine and the crappy week. And its probably because I've met all the i-want-to-meet people today, and and Bio SPA is OVAH! Like, ovaltine-over.

I'm not making any sense aren't I (which means I'm semi-back to normal)

I love Hiro! <3 you you cute little lump of fur...ball... And, I'm really sorry if I've offended you in any way... this week. It has been one heck of a shitty week, until today.

Gawd, this blog is dead *attempts to cast Resurrect*

And oh, the lame guy (literally, lame) is superbly genius, I cannot think of any decoy to trap the police and escape undetected on camera, gawd, why are terrorists such geniuses?

I'm in love, mildly, with some people who probably don't even know I exists. Its not the LOVE LOOOVE kind of love, more like the teeny itsy bitsy kind of monkey business.

OH AND AMERICAN IDOL. GOD WHO THE HELL IN THE WORLD CARES ABOUT THE GIRLS, MOST OF THEM SUCK! They should create more rooms for guys this year cos they totally pwn the girls' socks. The girls are booring and boorish, the guys this year, are hot hot hot.

EH MY CURLY HAIR GUY KENA VOTE OFF WTF!!!! My curly hair guy!!! Nevermind, still have 4 more hotties to look at. The two Jasons and the two Davids (so many double names) and most importantly, the mean but totally hot and pretty Danny!

AH DANNY IS MY FAVOURITE, c'mon girl show America what you've got, giv em attitude, yeah rock on! (and is it me or does he look like an exact duplicate of our very own Aifyah...) I PRESENT TO YOU, AFIYAH THE TWIN! WITH ATTITUDE SOME MORE!

(wow, i tell you, wow, he looks like a splitting image of Afiyah) Err, Afiyah doesn't read blogs right? I should be safe..

Oh and happy friendship week everyone! Kudos kudos! I <3>Do I make sense? Huh? No? Okay, chicken is tasty too. walawalahoo...

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Thursday, February 14, 2008 ; 10:56 PMY

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These few days have been rather emotional eh?

I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one feeling this way.

(yep I'm pretty darn sure from all the MOSSP blogs I read)

Go read Mel's and Jess's entry, I shant rant much, their posts pretty much sums up the happenings this week anyway.

Moving on, I know I may be a nuisance at times, and I may not know it. So I'd appreciate it if you could just kindly tell me or at least indirectly send me a gesture or signal so I know when I'm being annoying.

I am really very sensitive, and half the time I'm always thinking. Are you laughing with me, or just pretending to for the sake of being polite? I know this is a pretty stupid thought, and I don't expect people to tell me that I am not funny either. But yeah, I always do wonder.

I also hate the awkward silence that pops up here and there and everywhere. Its like, one moment you laugh, the next thing you know, you've acidentally touched a touchy subject and both parties freeze. Both wary and extremely cautious of what they say.

I'm gonna quote Jess on this anyway "I'm getting really confused by the ways of the world. And also how my brain works. I've been offending alot of people lately. I'm trying too hard to be funny. I enjoy seeing people laughing at me, even if it means embarassing myself. I mean like, if it brightens up their mood, whats the problem? I'm really trying too hard to be funny, it's starting to annoy myself as well." I've been feeling pretty much the same way.

I mean, I don't try to be funny all the time, thats stupid. And I only try to be funny when I'm telling a joke. I think you guys can pretty much differentiate when I am trying to be funny and...or maybe not.

This year started off high, but things have been going downhill ever since I received my chemistry results. (excluding chinese new year). I wasn't particularly sad about anything, probably chemistry, because I don't understand how any human can suck at a particular subject so much.

I didn't even know why I suddenly burst out crying about my chemistry results, it was something Gina said, but I forgot what. But it jolted me real good, enough to make me realise I'm not a chemistry person.

Oh, and I don't get why some people refuse to cry.

I mean if crying makes it better, then cry all you want. I don't think crying makes you look weak. I think pretending to be strong makes you look even weaker. You're not going to get stronger by not crying, you'll just look weaker, and appear more fragile, and stoned. Unless, you belong to the type of people that gets even more depressed after crying (I'm like that sometimes)

Yes, I refuse to cry over stupid things, like bad haircuts, and bruises and such. But when I'm really down, I cry all I want, because it makes me feel better.

I refuse to cry in front of my friends sometimes, not because I don't want to appear weak, but the responds they give make me cry even more. (you know, the are you allright? Omg whats wrong? Its ok...)

Not that I don't appreciate them, I just don't want to get depressed too long.

I try to shake it off, by doing stupid things,or cracking annoying jokes, and such.

Its weird, but the "sadder" I feel, the more random I get. Like, I'd say anything about anyTHING. You get this numb, feeling, like nothing matters anyway.

Its weird how all of us (pretty much all of us) don't even show these emotions in front of each other eh? We're all fun and good; like nothing ever goes wrong, and even if it did, we'll make it right. We refuse to show our emotional side, because, I think, we don't want to dampen the spirit further.

I never knew how much a blog can reveal about you.

I envy how some people have really close friends, you know, those that you"really" talk to. I don't really tell people much about how I really really feel. So for me, as long as I have people that I can get along really well with (even if its just goofing around) its really good enough.

I used to think I'm weird, until I realise you don't have to pour your one two threes to a friend just to be close to her.

What kind of shitty mentality is that anyway?

So just because I cannot fully open up to anyone, I'm a loner? Jut because I don't tell anyone about my daily shizzle, I'm not a good enough friend? I'm happy enough having cool and funny friends.

Hanging out with Mossp almost completely erases my stress half the time. I don't know if you guys feel the same way. Like Mel said a while back, you don't have to have a friend that talks to you on the phone everyday to HAVE a friend. or something along that line. She probably forgot she even said that!

I was still in the "I don't have any friends because no one calls and asks me what I ate for dinner. therefore no one likes me" kind of phase.

And I'm proud to say I've grown out of it. Its cool having great friends, and you do your part to keep relationship strong, you don't have to tell everything about yourself to be a friend. Being yourself is good enough, having a friend that you can open up to is just a pleasant bonus.

“I don’t think even when you find a person you trust you can be completely honest, ever. There are still pieces of you that you don’t give away. I do believe you always need that place where it’s just you, your thoughts, and no one else’s judgement of anything.” -Alicia Keys.

Sigh, so much about ranting.

We're all angsty, hormonally-imbalanced juveneilles aren't we? We'll grow out of it, life will get better.

I regret a lot, I regret very often-ly. I might even regret penning down this entry. I don't believe how anyone can say "I have no regrets". Well, I have no many regrets I lost count ever since I could remember.

I hate these upanddown teenage moodswings. But I don't want to grow old, never did want to...

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Tuesday, February 12, 2008 ; 9:14 PMY

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HAHAHA.

I just came to blog about I dream I had earlier that would probably be Mel's nightmare.

So I slept from the moment I came home till about, 10 minutes ago (9.10pm)

And I dreamt that Mel permed her hair.

And it looked like charred maggi mee stuck on her scalp. Bwahahahha, pardon me mel, but I can't seem to get the image off my head.

Bwahahahah!!!!!

That doesn't mean you shouldn't perm though Mel, I think you'll look pretty with wavy hair (hell I think everyone looks decent with waves, except Dai Ling, Dai Ling looks best in shining sexy baldness ala shaolin monk...=D)

I said waves, not sausage curls, maggi mee curls, auntie curls. Eugh.

10 years from now Dai Ling, when I will be implanting IFO(identified foreign objects) into people, you will be in Bugis Guan Yim Miao, reciting the budda script, whilst holding Denise's photo. (Denise will be this mega successful retail agent, who will come to me to do a brow lift =D)

And by the way Mel, if I may have the priviledge to do a rhinoplasty and boob job on you, it would be SO COOL cause then I'd get to see you nekkid...xD

Bwahaha. This is a totally random post, I'll blog about my lovely LOVELY LOOOVELY CNY soon. Ahh, I miss my cousins!

Oh, is it weird that I lost 1kg at CNY this year? I usually pile pounds at cnys! And I ate
buffalo trucks of food...Oh well, yay?

And I got my heart broken. The aodrably handsome guy in Cj7 is a girl. Bwah. And, I noted down this SUPER FREKIN HANDSOME GUY WITH CURLY ANGELIC HAIR AND PERFECT EYEBROWS male model particular. to look it up on the internet. Only to find out I noted down the hairdresser's particular.

Oh Antionetter Beenders, please oh please bless me Mr Angel's name...? I would looove to have his mesmerising photos...

My mum's friend just gave me the Kueh Lapis for Afiyah and Ms Loh! Oh joy! I still have Dodol to give, any of you like Dodol (any of you even know Dodol?)

Nope, its not preserved extinct dodo bird thank you very much.

Ciao! Its 10.15, I've been procastinating for 5.5 hours, should get to doing my maths! I used to like completeting squares (grumbles)

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Sunday, February 03, 2008 ; 7:46 PMY

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AM I THE ONLY GUNDU HAVING PROBLEM WITH HEYMATHS!!!

Heymath sucks! I tried to log in, and it came out like this...

Whats wrong you say? Everything! I can't click on anything except the itouch and the gundu games! Heymaths hates mee! Heymaths is gaaay! bwwah.

Oh a more serious issue, my houseS and flooding. Yes, houses, plural. My Singapore house is leaking shitwater (and by shitwater, I mean the Shittywater in you toilet bowl). The shitwater is seeping out of the wooden lining (my bedroom have wooden linings).

And my Indo house is flooded. Well, not exactly the house, but outside the house. Its KNEE HEIGHT. So you can practically kayak there (like a lot of locals are doing right now with the gas barrel). Our store's outside is flooded too, and business dropped like a jaw-dropping sky-high percent.

Now don't get me wrong, I looove rain, but too much water and booger in the drainage system isn't going to do anyone good. I remember a few years back the river nearby is soo flooded with rubbish, it looked like a land.

For once I hope the government will STOP being so obsessed with political issues and start cleaning up the clogged drain for a change. I should know, I am a geography student *wink wink*

And yayity! I went to Chinatown to buy stock for our store at Yue Hwa and went to peoples park for a sneak peek. And a glamorous metallic pink nintendogs bundle caught my sly eyes! 285! *dies* I am so happy, I'm going to ask my mum if I can buy it. Yay for pink! They have the gold one but its a Zelda bundle with an ugly logo on it. (ew)

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Saturday, February 02, 2008 ; 12:11 AMY

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I knew yesterday was the only good luck day of the bad luck week! I received the accursed Chemistry marks today.

12/40. My first big fat red Ang Pao.

I'm trying to think of reasons to tell my tuition teacher my pathetic marks...blah!

I've said it before, and I'll say it again,

I have NO CHEMISTRY, with Chemistry.

Anyway, I REALLY, TRULY, MADLY, DEEPLY HOPE WE CAN WIN CNY DECORATION!!!

On a lighter note, debate is over, yay! Public speaking, one of my worst fears, sorry in advance Shoba!

And and, you guys should see JESS's version of the semakau trip! Trippin-ly hillarioussss I tell you!

By the way, I think I'm balding, I better shop my hair short to "increase its fertility" with hair aluvium, or something along that line, right mel?

But Shikin said I should perm, so did Fifa, and my cousins.

So its a battle between the BALD and the BOUNCE. Which side are you on?

Seems like the harder I try, the harder I fall.

No, I'm not giving up Chemistry just yet, even though I know I SUCK at it.

I tried to hold it in, sorry! I just blew when I heard something that Gina said. It wasn't offensive, I forgot what she said, but she was being really sweet.

I can't stand it when people are sweet. It makes me blow, real bad. I guess its pretty unexpected, I myself was shocked.
So thanks so much Anisha, Afiyah, Gina, and Jess, in alphabetical order... You guys are the sweetest friends! =)

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