Hess, I just HAD to respond to this when I read your entry, to defend all the selfish people in the world.

I confess I'm pretty selfish. I REALLY. DONT. CARE. How others does after I know my results, unless I really CARE for them.

So if I've ever bothered consoling you or anything of that sort, you're important enough for me to care.

And you guys probably have heard me moan and groan about this, but I'm pretty competitive. Can't be bothered to type it all out again so just refer to the old MOSSP blog post I made few months ago. Too bad I hardly ever pwn the people I want to pwn, cus I'm lazeh like so.

I'm very particular about the old, cliche, copycat thingy to, I don't think I need to harp on this any longer.

So YEAH, I admit I'm happy when the people I want to pwn get lower than me =D I hate feeling that way but I CANT. HELP IT. As much as I hate how I get happy over their miseries, I can't help it.

Its like, so you HATE someone. You can't help it, you really cant. The only logical (and humane) thing left to do is to 1) confront her/him if he/she deserves it or 2) complain about her, female dog style.

But what if you just, plain hate him/her? NO reason, you just do! Then the only option left would be 1) bottle it in.

You can't help yourself from hating someone, you can only stop your feeling from showing through. Because that person probably doesn't deserve your hate. And its HELL doing that, this is coming from someone who've gone through it a good 4 months.

Eh, I think I've strayed. HEH. So back to the point. Yes I do get happy when I've the asses I wanna pwn, no I don't feel good about feeling happy about it, its not exactly nice. I'm sorry if I've ever made you pissed by confessing my exam fetish and I hope this doesn't offend you =(

I SLACKED THE WHOLE OF YESTERDAY AND BOY IT WAS GUILTY BUT GREAT. =D
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I feel like Os are over.

A Maths waz AWESUM.

Sense the sarcasm.

I was on the verge of tears halfway through the paper, the only thing stopping me from WAILING is the embarassment I'll get from invigilators.

"GER GER, why u cry, its okie lah." -Pfft yeah right. The invigilator for my row today was...poo-ey, thats the most benign vocab I canc ome up with.

Me: Erm, we have this graph paper right, so do we draw on the graph paper? Cos they say sketch...
She: -looks at me like I'm a retard with a bigass booger on my lip- What have you been taught? *rolls eyes*

Gosh I wished she would just LOOK at me so I can roll my eyes back at her. Nah, I'd probably be too chicken to do that.

Thank God and I really mean Thank GOD, I managed to snap through. I still didn't think I did well enough though. This is the kind of paper no one can study for, its REALLY unlike any tough Pre Lims I've done. Tough on a different level.

Can I ask you a question? Can you be frank with me? Have you ever secretly wished for an exam to be difficult so that you can score on the expense of weaker students?

I've been on both side, depends of the papers... Actually no, I take that back, I'm always the weaker students. I've always wished for it to be easy. And I've NEVER dared to declare any exam papers 'easy' just because I'm frickin' scared my marks prove otherwise, I'm kinda suay see.

Can I ask you another question? Can you be frank with me? Have you ever actually FELT sorry for someone who scored lower than you, or are you secretly happy she/he screwed it up.

I've always been pretty selfish - I don't really care how others fare as long as I do well. Seriously, do you REALLY care for someone who does badly? I don't really, unless I really care about the person. Comforting is another issue.

Today is an eventful day <- LOL omg thats so typical compo lingo. I've learnt that some people are not worth caring for, because you get nothing in return. I'd rather give the extra attention to people I truly care.

I've learnt that panic, can cause your butt to BUST.
Seriously, if I hadn't calmed myself down, I'd probably still be wailing NOW.
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Am I the only one who thinks chem paper isn't easy?
I really don't dare to comment on it,
I dont think its hard,
But I didn't think it was easy either.
Shit this post is so Singlish.

English was, gah.
For compo, I spent half an hour writing an essay I didn't even like.
Then crushed it after spending 30 minutes on it.
And proceed to write another essay with pre school grammar and vocab.
I thought I had a moment of EUREKA cos I was stoning at the last PAWN question.
But hey hey, it was a wrong moment of Eureka.
I wrote the robbers died in the hands of Orisis.
HAHAHA. Stinky robbers.
I still love cats tho.

<33
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Joo R EFFIN' DEPREZZING.
I give up convincing myself to like you.

ARSE..ANAL!

Oh, did I mention you're Xtremeleh contradicting as well? =D

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"When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow,
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit."

To everyone who's having vibes,
Of the 4 year war
We've been fighting for.
When you're at your edge,
And feel like giving up,
Remember, in the first place, why you fought.

The first poem isn't by me, but the second is =) Nothing great, I just feel really down today (Cos I found out my studying hours are PATHETIC compared to some other people) Kudos to Mel the Cow and Kwang, this is especially for you guys. =)
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What if I get 18?

What if I get above 15?

RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!~R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~!!!!!!!
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If it makes you bummers feel any better, I just spent 5 freaking hours watching Gackt on youtube.

HAHAHAHAHAHA. Dorky, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAH

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHH~!!H!H!HHhahahahhahAHhhhahhHHAHHAHAH!

HAHA I can't get over how he tried to kiss one of the Kinki Kids.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA. OMG MEL HAHAHAHAHAHA can you believe I youtubed him after reading your tag? It was like "Oh Mel, OH HEY why don't I watch some dorky vids?" (I hope you don't mind me stealing him for 5 hours)

By the way I almost died of Caraven yesterday, I havent completed ANY one of the chem papers Mrs chan gave, and she gave us like 3 more papers to do, oh wait, it was 5. WAAA.

HAHHAHAHA. Ohkay I need to compensate it with one full hour of studying. Wish me luck people, havent had much productivity, really want to cry right now. WAAA.
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HAHA.

I tried to do some geog today, and asked mrs khoo to mark it.
Most of my answers were out of point.

I'm losing it, attentin span, common sense, content and sanity.

Stressed because I'm not doing hard enough.
How 'hard' am I working when I was watching 3 movies in a row yesterday?
I was comtemplating on whether or not to write that but THERE, shan't go on pretending like I do stuff when all I do is waste my time watching brainless dramas.

Stressed because I see more and more idiots everyday. Idiots who claim that they're not studying, (wth you score below 20 and you didnt study? Get real, you're not fooling me) Idiots who claim that they're not studying hard enough when they do like 5 papers a DAY A FREAKING DAY when I'm struggling to get the effing content in my fat but hollow head.

Stressed because I have to handle mental issues that most would probably never care about.

Oh by the way, I doubt it when people say "I feel sorry for you" seriously, who cares about others when you have 6a1s? Would you be crying for your friend who received, say, above 20 when you have 6a1s?

Oh by the way hey, another K star committteeedd suicide, thats the second celebrity suicide this month, FYI. Dang Koreans are sure tough on their celebs, Model Kim Ji-hoo was slammed for being...gay? WTH???

Hope he doesn't go to hell for being gay. <-Hope I don't, like, get a sin for saying that.

My conclusion is, in Korea, you either make it BIG and gets tons of compliments and crazy ass fans, or get bombarded with nasty comments-enough to drive you insane. SO many bands are overrated, so many SINGERS are overrated.

-deleted-

10 more days to hell.
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Sho I was walking with my dad and sis at suntec,
And I heard "AGNES! Agnes? AGNES!"

LOL it was parveena and gang. So heartwarming to meet them again at suntec at grad day, really you guys are the BEST classmates in the world. 4/3 is the first class that I actually proclaim my LOVE FOR *cliche, ala romeo style*

These few days have been muddle-ish for me, I was looking back at my three previous post, I didn't even remember typing all that? Oh I also didnt remember writing down the 44444 thing, until people told me I posted it on my blog.

Gah, I'm getting way too forgetful, I know I kissed someone, in a totally platonic way, today, BUT I CANT FREAKING REMEMBER WHO.

Gosh, its like a hangover, sans alcohol, what the hell is happening to me, brain disintegrating ah

Edit: Yeah I finally figured out who, hope I didnt freak her out man, it was totally an impulse thing...
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I got Lfreaking1R5 of 30 (lol I just typed 15)

If you havent noticed my pattern, lets take a walk down memory lane, from term 1 of sec3.
15, 18, 22, 24, 25, 27 and now for prelims *drumroll* 30.

THIRTfreakingTY. Yeah I've hit the jackpot of doom, and I'm really debating on whether or not to publish this because there's some people I'm unconfortable with. (no one in tkgs, i assure you)

Steady deprovements, HAH.

And I realise the more I do, the dumber I feel, I just did bio TYS and I scored 27 out of 40. People say MCQ is their life saver, erm, mine is the opposite. Same goes for chem, 26/40.

The dumb thing is, I cant argue for MCQ (ask Ting Ke about how much I argued for Bio MCQ). For structured, at least theres leniency for slight deviations (cos dumb people have dumb interpretations, see)

I know some of you are SO SICK of hearing me go "do you think I can get L1r5 of 12 or below?". Thing is, I doubt myself so much that I need to hear it from others to feel a wee bit better.

Oh and dont mind me comparing marks, because that to me has become a reflex. I'm in NO way trying to make myself feel better, just want to see where I stand. When I ask you the above *points to L1r5<12*, thats when I really am trying to seek reassurance. Sho, you guys know this is my weakness right,

and NO DAI...
LING, looking at you like -_- is normal ok. thats like everyone else's reflex.

HAHA, actually that was more of a lame attempt to make you blush... *smoochie*

Anyway, lame joke I thought of yesterday while studying geog (yeah barely touched would be a better verb)

If there's employer and employee, what do you call someone who commits suicide (lol I just typed suidice)?

COMMITTEE =D (I dare you to spread my wonderful joke around)
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